I so agree with Karen, LovingMom.  I was brought up to go to church EVERY single sunday. 

Now I truly beleive that I don't have to be in a building to have God in my life. 

 

Somebody once told me that religous people go to church out of the fear of hell and spiritual people have already been through hell.  Thats why they're spiritual.  Make any sense?

 

All I know is that I feel closer to God when I'm not in a church.  I like to pray in my bedroom or outside in the woods near nature.

 

Butterfly don't worry too much about your faith.  It will come.  It's hard to beleive in a higher power when you've been through so much and the world is like it is.  I will have many questions when I finally get to meet my 'higher power', as I'm sure you will too!

 

Just the fact that you are reaching out is a sign, in my opinion, that you still have faith somewhere in your heart just waiting for you to let it grow. 

luv,

sue

Thanks very much for your comments.

I too am a catholic & used to go to church christmas, easter & the odd sunday.

Since going thru the gift of childbirth I do believe in something but i'm not sure what.

I think maybe i lost faith  because of the life i'd had & i've always had to help myself as i seem to suffer in silence.

I'll leave it here as i don't really know what to say.

Thanks.

Dearest Butterfly,

I also think the church doctrine is based on mans opinions.

But, where would we be without the structure of it?

Many people believe that theirs is the only religion.

I beg to differ as I think God is in every breath we take.

Everything I personally have been through in my life was

and is a continuing learning experience.

For what reason or end? I have not a single idea.

But I also know this is the way it is for everyone.

I read an engish author one time that said

all of us go through trials and tribulations......all suffer

Just in different ways.

I thank Heavens mine was addiction,

as I see many with children that never will be whole.

With loved ones that need constant care

People that have no use of their limbs, or speech processes

Yet they live, and are grateful for the moments of life!

 

I am not ashamed of the road I traveled......

I want to take each bend in the road as a sign

 that there is a purpose and reason for my life.

 

And I think some would call that faith

 

Yours is there, shame & hopelessness have

darkened the doorway thats all.........

Have Faith Baby!!

It's there

Much Love EX

 

 

Wow Ex thanx for that.  Sometimes I start on a pity party for myself cause I was a heroin addict and I say to myself that things could have been better...  But you are SO right.  What is a heroin habit next to a mother who cant pick up or even hug her baby because it's so sick, or somebody who was so active all their life and now through some terrible turn of events they are paralized from the neck down.  Or those little kids in Africa who are starving to death so bad that their skin is falling off. I am embarrassed to feel sorry for myself and I need reminding once in a while....

so thank you.

Luv,

sue

HI JENNI LEA

 

JUST A SUGGESTION,,,JUST START OUT BY BELIEVING IN SOMEONE OR A GROUP OF SOMEONES WHO HAVE BEEN ABLE TO STAY CLEAN,,,THEN, WHAT I DID WAS I FAKED IT ,,, I PRAYED ON MY KNEES WITHOUT BELIEVING AND JUST ASKED THAT MY HEART BE OPEN AND PRAYED FOR THE WILLINGNESS TO BELIEVE...