Frog, I am sending you this message from Ringlady.
Frog, I'm so sorry your havng a hard time right now. It's so hard when things are happening around us and then to have BP or depression of any kind it just adds to whatever is going on. I am not able to take meds not because I can not or won't it's cause I don't have the money to. But I have found something that does help me. And maybe it will help you. I go for walks I go to the park and walk around it. I drink calming tea and b comlpex. I talk to friends who knows my condition. I watch funny shows even though I don't want to or feel up to it. I force myself to get up and keep busy. I play games on computer I just try and keep myself busy at all times and I try to stay away from anything that is negative and I know that is hard now a days. Jan our Butterfly can tell you how bad I am or can be. Don't think that the world and loved one and friends would be beter off without you becaue that is not true. When you get to feeling that way it's time to get up and keep busy. Talk to your wife or family or good friend. WE love and care about you very much frog your a part of our family here. We need you as much as you need us. I can't be on the boards because of no internet, but you acn always e-mail me and I will e-mail you right back right away. Just remember that you are loved and that we care very much for you. Jan can give you my email addy. I look at it through my phone I hope you will get to feeling better soon.
Big hugs and much love goes your way, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Ringlady