Anger, whether I feel "justified" or not is not a safe emotion for me. I tend to take it too far. Fear,sadness, isolation, paranoia are other emotions that I need to always be aware, that if I am feeling them, I need to find someone I trust to vent to, to do a reality check, or to hug me until I stop crying. I thank God I have people like that in my life today. I ask for help today. I get help today.  It wasn't always like that. Do not be mistaken, my life is not all peaches and cream, butterflys, magic, and chocolate ice-cream without calories! I just want to give others who may be suffering today, some hope that life will improve if we work for it. I know, sometimes we are so tired of the fight that we can't stand the thought of working for anything! But do not dispair! This too shall pass. Hold on! You are worth it! After six years of changing meds, in and out of the local looney bin, changing Dr.s, moving, losing jobs and losing housing, losing relationships, I am stable. I have maintianed the same address for 4 years. A miricle. I will be able to get my drivers licence back soon. Another miricle. I have not been able to repair everything yet, but I have faith that if I give it all up to God, my needs will be met, I will get the things I need when I am ready for them, I will get the things I want when I am ready for them. I may think I am ready, and want something to be right NOW, when it is not Gods time for me to have whatever it  is.  Golly! I though I was going to talk about feelings, the good the bad and the ugly, I got side tracked... imagine that! Well I must close for now. I am new to this web site. I have been to the chat room several times and there is never anyone in it. Do you have a schedual? Thank you all for listening, Elf