i hope i put  this on the right board...

i feel all paranoid always watching my ps and qs not really dareing to let my self say anything that can be changed *sighs* he gets off on harassing me i sware and it doesnt help im going through this really bad dont touch me dont talk to me and leave me alone depression right now i feel as though no one wants me around and hates me and just lets me be there cuz they have no choice  though i know thats not true im sleeping maybe 4 hours i sit and watch movies all night this cant be good right  *sighs* i have a obgyn appt today at 330 and im not looking forword to it i donno what to do im sooo tired and i know i need sleep but when i go to lay down im no longer tired i got all this energy i cant seem to keep one train of thought i keep boucnig between ten trains of thoughts and its getting old fast i keep having panic attacks and these are ones that come and gone these last for a half hour to three hours i have a pdocs appt the 4th  and stuff

soo thats whats going on with me