(((((Gooey))))) I'm sorry to hear you are going through such a rough time.I isolate a lot myself. The people who look at you and see only what they choose to; are shallow, and confused. Try to stay focused on the you that you know you are. It is their loss. Please be careful with the self-medication. That is so easy to slip into and get carried away in it. You will be in my prayers and thoughts. Vent, and vent some more if you need to. Take it one little step at a time. Big hugs, Rain.
thank you so much. Reading my post today I am embarrassed but gosh darn it all I dont have ANYONE to talk to...This is my safe haven...But how can I vent without alarming anyone?? I dont want anyone to worry about me...I am a very tuff bird...I am afraid of journaling in the event one of my family members ever found it they would just freak out...They have flat out told me I am not bi polar--just pull up the suspenders, buck it up and move on. Ya know that trick works on some things but they have no idea how hurt my mind got and apparently permanently from the accident. Yesterday I forgot my meds and by the end of the night I was hearing that funny bug zapping fan noise....so I then remembered, took my Seroquel and went to bed. I havent been able to see a shrink because of the infamous waiting list and then my insurance plan through work canceled the company and went with another! So now I have to start all over again...better luck this time I pray...Rain why is it so much easier to help others but we continue to beat ourselves up????
Gooey. I know it so much easier to drink to cover the pain but be careful. I lost all my friends cuz I was drinking to bury the pain of loosing my children. We will always be here to listen. Don't worry about loosing us cuz we understand. Were here for you.