((((((((((Goo))))))))) I am sooo glad you are reaching out for help. Make that call. Try and not be too hard on yourself about work. After all, like you said - you're new at it. Things will turn around. I know we can't always be strong; but we have a right to like and accept ourselves as we are. It's hard for me too, lots of times. You have been in my thoughts and prayers and you will continue to be. Don't give up. We are here for you and we all care. Keep posting if you can and get it out if it helps. I am sending you positive thoughts and huge hugs full of love. Hugs, Rain.