JANICE'S BI-POLAR SUPPORT SITE

I HAVE BAD PANIC ATTACKS SOMETIMES WHEN I FIRST GET TO WORK I HAVE KNOW CLUE WHAT FOR UNLESS I AM NERVOUS ABOUT WHAT JOB I WILL BE ON AND WHEN I AM BOUNCING AROUND FREAKING OUT SHAKING TEARS STREAMING DOWN FACE WITH NO CRYING INVOLVED SOME NORMATOID (AS RAIN SAYS lol) WANTS TO KNOW WHY I AM DOING THIS ? WELL MY MOUTH SPEAKS B4 IT GIVES MY BRAIN A CHANCE TO THINK AND I LET THEM HAVE IT THEN AFTER I CALM DOWN AS BIG HEARTED AS I AM I FEEL SOOOO SOOOO TERRIBLE FOR BUMPING MY GUMS B4 I THINK THEN I HAVE TO GO AND APOLOGIZE FOR BEING RUDE BECUZ THESE PPL CAN'T GET THRU THERE HARDHAT HEADS THAT WE WANT TO BE LEFT ALONG UNTIL THIS PASSES INSTEAD OF THEM RUNNING THERE JAWS I END UP SAYING I WOULD NOT PUT THIS ON MY WORST ENEMY BECAUSE THIS IS THE ENEMY AND I AM AFRAID SOMETIMES ESPECIALLY HERE WITH MY BOYFRIEND I AM GONNA FREAK AND HURT SOMEONE I JUST GO JUMP IN THE SHOWER HERE AT HOME A COLD ONE ALSO HELP ME FOR MY PANIC ATTACKS . I FREAKED OUT ONE NIGHT AFTER WE HAD SOME TROUBLE WITH THE NEIGHBORS THAT B*TCH HIT MY BOYFRIEND IN THE HEAD WITH A HAMMER OH SHE IS SUCH A CHICKEN SH*T WH*RE SHE WOULD NOT COME OUT OF THE HOUSE I SCREAM CALLED HER EVERYTHING IN THE BOOK HER AND HER DAUGHTER JUST DROPPED THERE HEADS AND WENT INTO THE HOUSE IF SOMEONE WAS CALLING MY MOM THOSE NAMES YOU COULD NOT HAVE DRUG ME OFF OF THEM WITH A TEAM OF WILD HORSES!!!! I WAS SHAKING SO BAD WHEN THE LAW FINALLY ARRIVED THEY MADE ME COME IN AND TAKE A SHOWER (MY BOYFRIEND TOLD THEM IT WOULD CALM ME DOWN AND HE HAD TO HOLD ME IN THE SHOWER) WITH THE OFFICER STANDING AT THE DOOR. WHEN HE WENT AND GOT THE NEIGHBORS STATEMENT SHE SAID I HAD NO IDEAL I WAS DEALING WITH A CRAZY WOMAN I TOLD THAT OFFICER SHE HASN'T SEEN CRAZY YET.......THE OFFICER TOLD HER SHE BETTER STAY AS FAR AWAY FROM ME AS SHE COULD CAUSE IF I CAUGHT HER OUTSIDE THEY MAY NOT GET HERE IN TIME TO HELP HER... LOL... I THINK THAT IS FUNNY. ANYWAY I DIDN'T USE TO BE THIS WAY I WAS ALWAYS CHILLED OUT AND LAID BACK BUT I REALIZE NOW JUST THINKING BACK I HAFT TO HAVE BEEN BI-POLAR IN MY YOUNGER DAYS CAUSE I WOULD GET THIS WILD ENERGY I BELIEVE I COULD RUN A MILLION MILES THEN WHEN I CAME DOWN I WAS DOWN FOR DAYS . WELL I GUESS I HAVE TALKED YOUR EARS OFF ENOUGH IT JUST TICKS ME OFF FOR PEOPLE TO SAY WHY WELL THAT IS WHAT I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW, WHY???????? THANKS FOR LISTENING AND I LOVE YA BUTTERFLYLAND FAMILY BESIDES MY SON YOUR ALL THE FAMILY I HAVE SO THANKS A BUNCH AND AGAIN THANKS FOR LISTENING POOHMOMA ~~KIM~~~ P.S. OH PLEASE DON'T THINK I WOULD HURT MY SON HE IS MY SUNSHINE I WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING TO HURT HIM JUST THOUGHT I WOULD LET YOU KNOW THIS HE IS THE FIRST THING I THINK ABOUT WHEN I GET UP AND THE LAST THING I THINK ABOUT WHEN I GO TO SLEEP.. POOHMOMA

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