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My mother is home now and I have been taking care of her. That has been stressful enough as it is ...she seems to have the mind of a 2 year old now, and I have to constantly tell her what to do and how to do it. I don't know if I shared that my daughter had run away from home before my mom went into the hospital, but she came home the day Mom did. Now she is off and running again. She hates my husband and they fight constantly. We tried to compromise by moving him into the apartment over the garage. I spent all week moving everything from downstairs up there just so she would stay home. I went out today and bought her a new futon bed that she wanted with a matching chair. She has gotten her way mostly. The only thing I haven't done is divorce my husband. Anyway she threw a fit at the gas station and left on foot. She says that I don't care about her and I need to think....can you imagine that? I need to think. She has a boyfriend that is too old for her and she knows how we feel about it. I was so upset I drove 90 miles an hour in a 35 speed zone and practically piled up the car and really wished I would have. She was always my best friend and now she is becomming my worst enemy. I have never felt so hurt in my entire life. It's like she is trying to drive me over the edge and she is succeeding. I never had anything good in my life until her and now I have no idea what she wants from me. It's 3 in the morning and I have no idea where she is. I don't want the police to pick her up but I'm starting to think I have no choice but to call them. I am afraid of losing her, but I guess I already did. I can't do this anymore.

wow.. scarey.... is she mentally ill or alzheimers or what?? i would call the police even if she gets mad.... it would be best if she is safe...

sorry to hear about your daughter too.... kids are hard ..... especially that age...

i hope you will take care of yourself.... you sound like you give to everyone, but yourself...... you deserve to be cared for too!!!

It sounds to me like ya daughter is just tryig to get her own ways on life she is trying to trigger ya and make ya feel guilty about it all. When I was young I let home, but not for any reasom just for the attention, and cause I was BP and didn't know it, I wasn't on any meds at that time.

I have 3 kids that were turned over to my x husband, cause of my BP, he wouldn't have any of my kids teasted. My middle child has BP also but refuses to seek geting help with it. A few years back she drank bleach and tried to jump off a very tall bridge into the rapid rocky waters. We went and tried to get her back home but had no luck. I did get visations of them after 3 years. With in 5 years they came back one by one. They would do things that thier step mom would get triggered by by it. She would then send them to me one by one. They were all teens except one she was 9 or 10 and she throught a clip boad at her. She was very abusive from her and my youngest through a clip board at her. THey did it cause of the way they they were treated and also for the atention. I was so happy to have them back. THe middle child why tried to kill herself, was a hand full. I don't know how old ya daught is but if a teen they are a hand full. And to top it off ya ahve ya mother to care for. Ya sure have a plate ful hun. I will keep ya on my heat thoughts and prayers. And like Rain said don't for get yaself, ya have to keep yaself togeter as much as ya can during these didacult time, if ya can't yaself ya can't help ya doughter or mom. It was very unfare to yaslef and husband to move him out of the house. I don't think any thing ya do will help her for awhile. My kids have learned to repect me and be their best friend. So don't give up hope and pray alot. Prayer works wonders. Keep us posted on how all is going.

Butterfly~Janice

Today I really feel like my kids want me to yell. Ihate to yell but I have all this rage inside right now. I'm taking a break from them. I know part of it is stress. We are moving to a new town tomorrow. I'm still not finished packing.My lovley children are just little girls but I am so mad at them for such stupid little things. They want to playwith stuff that isalready packed and unpack it. They also keep fighting with each other. My husband is already moved because of his job. my BP is still new to me even though I grew up with a BP parent.I just feel full of anger.I knowthiswill pass. I just had to get it off my chest. Thanks

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Glad to hear things are getting better. I will be praying for you all. Love and hugs, Rain.