i do not understand why....now that i am tring to get help for myself, i can't!!!! i have insurance, i have a family doctor, i don't need a referal,  and i have some help...but still, i can not get an appointment. i had a lscw...for a few weeks, i showed up every time, once she was late and then...she just left, she was not there when i went. i found out(after i found a new lscw) that she had gone on holiday!!!wtf!!!she deals with people who have mental issues, sometimes we need to talk to someone, and she was not there, i could not talk to her and i really liked her, we were doing art thearpy... the next one...she is a lscw, who does not want me to have outside help to find a pdoc(she will only treat me if i see a pdoc and am on propper meds). my bf mom, who works in a doctors office sometimes calls to help me get an appointment...i work so i cant always make the calls myself. i can not sit on hold all day just to find out that the doctors are not takeing new patients...or will not see anyone who has spent any time in a hospital!!!wtf!!!a head doctor who will not see anyone who was in a hospital. who do the have to treat...now i have been waiting six weeks to see my new pdoc..and i get a call telling me that she will not be able to see me, she is leaving the office. so now what...i wait another four weeks to see this other pdoc...and now i give up. i was tring to see a woman, i really did not want to but everyone keeps telling me it would be better for me and my problems...now i will be seeing a guy again and nothing will change..........i will see him he will tell me i should of told someone and then what...i get pissed off stop going and
oh yeah try to kill myself again...sorry i am just really pissed off with all of this....

 

with all of this not going on i will have to wait longer to get treated for the hep c my doctor wants to treat me and we were going to start in the late fall when i was going to get layed off anyway so it would not be so hard...but i can not start treatment til a pdoc clears me and i have been on meds or whatever i needed for atleast three months....now i will have to wait til next fall or try to do treatment durring the busy time at my work......

 

sorry, thanks for letting me rant