I am really going through a rough time.  Don't know what triggered it but lately I am having suicidal thoughts. 

 

One minute I just want to end it all and end my suffering and the next I am scared to die.  I feel trapped in this world.  I feel like there is no way out and no help for me.  I feel alone in everything I go through.  I feel like no one would miss me or even know I was gone.

 

I find myself wanting more and more to just be rid of this life that I am in.  I want to curl up in a little hole and just die.  I can't stand the drastic mood swings.  I am all alone and I don't matter.  So what's the diff.