Well it seems that I made it through the worst. I still have some problems getting to sleep but I am sleeping now that the pdoc put me back on my night time serquil. The racing thoughts have stopped and things seem much clearer. I think that I did the right thing by contacting my pdoc as soon as I saw that I was in trouble. It saved me this time. Thank you all for your support. It means so much when you are going through this to have people that care about you and understand what you are going through and the pain that you are in. When I cycle I become someone else almost I don't know who I am. It is like I am hanging from a cliff on a thread of sanity. It is so hard once you cross the line to find your way back. What this group does for members in this time of need is holds a light of love to help light the path back home. I love you all |