It hasn't been a good time for me at all and the past few weeks have been the hardest to deal with, the bp and depression is really bad to the point that I am praying to the Lord to take me from this earthly life. I keep blaming myself for everything that has taken place with my family, now I wake up in a full blown panic attack. It doesn't help that the frirends that I do have are so neg and keep telling me whats going on with my so called husband and his girlfriend.

I am so tired and weary I don't think I can hang much long.

I look in the mirror and see what I have become and can't believe that I have sunk so low.

I pray night and day and I am trying to keep my head above water but lately I am to tired to keep bobbing back up.

I feel lost and lone and don't know where to turn to for help.

My daughter Cristina who lives with me helps me and is there for me, but now I am afraid that I will lose her too.

Mamma Butterfly has been there with me through all of this but when I call its just the same old thing.

I am trying so hard to do good and get through all of this but seems like the bp is winning.

thank you for your love and support

if you can say a prayer for me.

your in my thoughts and prayers always

ringlady