Many many (((((((Ringlady))))))) First of all, I want to say I think you need the mirror again. I think you have forgotten it and have stoped using it. I want you back at it. YES the dreaded mirror AGAIN!!!! Second of all, I want to you to STOP praying for the neg things. And he will not take you until it's time, his time, not yours and what you want. No everyone will not be better off without you. Your daughter would be devestated without you. What would she do without you sweetie? And your other daughter, she may not be around you right now, but she WILL be back. I can not say when, but she will be, I am sure of it. She does love you very much, if she didn't, she would not have gotten in contact in any way what so ever, she would not of sent  tex messages, and for such a long time that one night. And your son, he loves you very much, he may not live near you, but he does love and care about you, or he would not stay in contact with you at all. And I happen to love & care very much also. You are not jsut someone that I know, you are someone that I love very much, we have been through alot together, and for a long time now. You were the very first memeber that I had in the group that I start way back when before I lost it and had to rebuild for the 3rd time. So see no one would be better off without you sweetie. Yes your family here loves and cares very much. Some of the old members are no longer here for one reason and another, but they still care very much, and it has nothing to do with you or me personaly. We do have a few of the older members who you do know, and we have some new ones that you need to give a chance to get to know you. Once you are able to get your internet service back, it will be a lot easier, as you will be able to be on the boards more and tehy will see you more and get to see how lonving careing and nice person you are. Not to say you arent' now, cause you are so very mcuh. You are worth so very much. I hope you know you can come here and vent all you want to, any time you can, as I know you can not post from your cell phone at all. You are free to tex me, and I will post on your behalf. ANd you can also post if and when you can get to a puter. So vent any time you can need or want to!!!! Do you hear me load and clear!!!! Do not let you husband get to you. He is the one with the problems dont' take them on yourself and I know how hard that is not to do. But you can do it, I know you can. Don't let that demon take over and ran your life. Take hold and stay strong,and again I know it's hard, and eaisier said then done, but you can do it also. I am thinking and praying for you.

Love & Hugs!

Butterfly~Janice

 

Thank you butterlfy

I hear you loud and clear but I am not strong to get through this, you would think that I would be happy not to be with him and especially now but my heart hurts so bad!!!!

I know that I can't let the demon get to me but its so hard but you know all about this.

I know my kids love me and need me even if the don't show it or aren't around me. i don't know what would happen to my daughter who lives with me if something happens to me, its just how I feel.

I am trying hard to keep my head above water but well you know how it is!!!!!

i love you so very much your such a good friend to me!!!!

you mean the world to me!!!

thank you so much

lots of love and big big hugs

ringlady