It has been a busy 48 hrs.  A lifetime of sorts all packed into a couple of long days and nights.  Barely have the control lid on right now.  Hubby still doesnt want to be together. He has his own his trips and apparently wants me to be all better before he can reconsider.  I want to make the decision for him and say too late pal, you missed your chance with me.  I dont want YOU.  You, the man who was suppose to be my life partner throught good times and bad, to grow old together, to fight the world togehter and to live life together...