Hi blueyez,

 

I am sorry we haven't gotten back to you sooner. I am also very sorry to hear about your miscarrage. It sounds like you have been haveing a really tough time of things lately.

The pit in you stomach may be anxiety.  You may also be more depressed than normal because of the miscarrage and all the physical changes that your body has gone through in a short amount of time and your hormones are probably out of sorts too. Please take time to talk to your doctor about how you have been feeling. You may need a different medication for the depression and anxiety. You might also consider some counseling to help you cope with the miscarrage and all the emotions that go along with that. It can be very hard to cope with that kind of loss in your life right now. You may have lost the joy and desire to draw, write poems, painting and scrapbooking because you are trying not to feel the sadness that you probably have a right to feel.

Sometimes you have to let yourself feel the sorrow to get through it and heal. Try to stay connected to the people who are the best support for you. Make yourself go outside at least once a day for a little while and do something even if it is just to sit and soak in the beauty around you. You don't want to let yourself stay closed off. Your pain and sorrow might become your inspiration to pick up your hobbies again.

Infact it would be very theraputic for you and help you get out what you have locked away.

I have gotten these same feelings when I am having a panic attack from all the anxiety I am feeling. I usually close off all the outside stimulation and go to my room and listen to some nature sounds music or classical music (which I don't really like but it seems to sooth my soul) and it usually goes away after a while. Or I get out of my house and go visit someone. My favorite thing to do is window shop. I have even gone to walmart in the middle of the night and just looked around and filled up my basket with what ever really caught my fancy and when I was good and worn out and ready to go home, I simply walk away from the basket. I know it sounds very mean to do that since someone has to put it all back but I don't do it all the time and it works. If you really need a challenge, put it all back before you go home. I don't know, everyone has a different thing that makes them feel better.

Anyway, my point is let yourself feel the bad stuff, lean on your friends and family and do something everyday even when you don't want to (make yourself). Be careful not to get stuck in a routine of staying disconnected. Get silly every now and then when no one is looking and especially when they are. Try to get some counseling to help you work it all out. Write about what that knot in your stomach might be caused from. Talk to others about your feelings.

You don't have to do all of these things but I hope there is at least one good thing in here that might help you.

 

Just ride life out and see where it takes you.

Tami