I agree with you in so many ways. I tell my family "I am fine" for their sake and sometimes mine. I find it hard to accept this awful disorder. I also find it hard to recoginize there is little true research or answers for all this. I am a nurse and had never heard of RSD until I was diagnosed! What kind of sick joke is that. I am so sorry your children found you in that way. I am curently pregnant (how stupid am I) and I fear how it will effect me as a mother. I sometimes hurt so much I can barely take care of myself how in the hell do I take care of a newborn? If you have any suggestions let me know. You are not alone, we are all in this together.

Peace to you. -Jama