hi group

i had back surgery 3/05; with the burning in my right leg  that didnt end with sugery and  the surgeon said looks like a little causlgia. w/o any explainations; and i left with my first steroid pack.

over a year later the disc tissue that stuck to the nerve is now growing its own scare tissue on my root nerve in the l5 area. i have had farely good care and medications have been given.  but stress is a killer; i have tried to explain this and others dont understand how i can be getting worse; the mri isnt something u can just pull out of your pocket and say see look. lol   yes, i have a sense of humor. always have and always well.  so yes, althought not thrilled by this have to see what i still have.  oh and if a post and it makes no sense, i've lost my ablitiy to put words together..  when speaking i come up with some dozzies lol really have to laugh at myself when i realize what word my mind tossed out.

 

like a said its the stress that is doing me in; mom in particualar that called and screamed at me every day i was on morphine and then fentenyl until i demanded to be takend off them and put back on tramadol and other meds to deal with the pain.

now is screaming at me over my daughter 6 months prego and the moodiest person alive. even claimed last time she had a temper fit that i abused her - what a crock of butter lol. so when sister and hubby told her that she should be more supportive of me ;she screamed even louder and then her brother died and wouldnt even give me details and before she left called and screamed at top of her lungs i hated her and her brother is dead three time and last time i hate u and hung up. just spoke to sister and she hasnt heard from her either not even to give us time of the service.   is hours away and with work we really couldnt attend since we only met him once. not really close.

so my bad leg has been twisting for a week with my knee as big as a softball and both legs black and blue for the pulling, i can barely walk. if feels like my ankle is broken; but i dont think so. have apt. with spec on the 6th so hope i clear up by then.

ty for letting me dump, its always better then holding it in

and sure more then u wanted to know about a stranger but sry i needed to be free of it.

ty ty ty

mary in iowa

artist and budding muscian