Kelly I am sorry to hear that you are so unhappy........it may help you to remember that happiness is not external.......is does not come from your surroundings......it lies deep within you....in fact it is our true nature.....you, Kelly, are the only one that can make yourself happy.....when you depend on others to bring you happiness, that is when you become disappointed if they do not meet your expectations.....as I read your post......I feel you are only looking at what you don't have.......maybe you could begin looking at what you do have in your life......gratitude is known to open the doors for more.......I truly hope you can understand what I am trying to say here Kelly, because if you do, you will never forget it....and you will never again feel the way you do at this time......I know this from experience........take time to meditate.......to pray.....at those time you are able to shut out the external and concentrate on the internal....and that my friend is where you will find your happiness...M~