Kelly i know i dont know you as well as jody or some of the others here....but.....theres nothin in this world like the love of a mom and from what i hear J say those boys love you....i have a couple of boys myself and its true somtimes it seems like iam a nonhuman to them but somtimes when i look at them i can see the love or sence/feel it from them.....
at this point im wondering where iam going with this....guess all i really wanted to say is that you are Love whether you can feel it right now or not we all are sweetie and you are loved by those BOYS and our Jody here seems to love your Badass lol and if ya need more then that it seems like theres a whole lotta love here for YOU and anyone else that may be in need of it...
its like this im a big fat softy and love to love yep thats me so if ya need a hug or anything i'd like to call ya friend cause your already my Sister
wishing for you all that you desire to complete your heart Kelly 
Heres my favorite Prayer I hope it brings you some peace of mind ....