Kelly, I have been thinkin about ya all day......sending healing to your broken heart.......I came to ask if you had talked to your man about those feelings you have?...maybe what you feel he feels isn't really how it is......and well if it is?......then you have a decision to make.....but Kelly, I don't want to focus on that right now......I am really concerned.....about you and your son....if he has never seen you happy in his life?.......really......Kelly......this is not a good thing.......and if he is blaming himself......really not a good thing......I know I am not telling you something you don't know......but Kelly, please get some counseling......for all of you......because your other children need to be included in this as these feelings are being shared.....even if you don't mean to.....I really cannot impress upon you how important I feel that it is that you guys talk to someone....soon!........like yesterday......please!.....if you can't find someone to talk to......I will help you.....I will call around til we can find someone that will listen to whats going on....k?......if you want to write to me. [email protected] I will do what I can to help you through this....my love to you and your family...M~