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Hello everyone, I decided that since Jody promoted me to Assistant Manager here at SK, that I would fill you all in on my brief life story.I will TRY not to ramble on too much My real name is Kerri-Lee. I have been a member here at SK since April 2004, I was guided here by beautiful Mara, and I thank her so much for that.I have really attached my soul to alot of you here, you are all so wonderful I truely love it here, and the warm feelings I experience here. Ok, here goes my story................I was born on June 9, 1970 at 4:44 pm.My birth mother couldn't keep me for her reasons, and gave me up for adoption.I stayed in the care of nurses until I was adopted at 19 days old, to a wonderful mother and father. I grew up with my adopted brother(Andrew)and sister (Kristi).My dad was in the RCMP(Royal Canadian Mounted Police), so we were transfered around to many different small towns in Manitoba during my childhood. I have been living with "gifts" since the time I can remember, which my memories start at four years old.I used to have many spirit visitors come to see me in my bedroom.I was very afraid at the time, and my mom and dad kept on telling me it was only bad dreams, but it wasn't.It happened every single night, sometimes there were many in my room at once, and they would always stand there and look at me.I remember one time, I finally got the courage to get out of my bed and run right through a spirit to get out of my room.I remember the feeling while passing through her too.It is too hard to explain in words.I ran to my moms room to ask her to come and see, but when we got back to my room, they were all gone, so of course, I was told I was having a nightmare, and to go back to bed.This took place for many years, I stated rocking my head at night, back and forth, really fast and chant "I am going to dream about good dreams" over and over again.I had to just in order to fall asleep.This always left my hair in knotty mats in the morning, so my mother kept my hair very short like a pixie, for all my childhood.To this day, I can not sleep without a fan going in my room, to drown out all the "sounds" at night so that I may sleep. I was a loner for the most part, and had a hard time connecting with anyone, I too was also considered "different", the "problem child".I used to sit out in the field at night , or in the woods in the park, alone, talking to the animals and birds.I used to dance with the Northern Lights, and dance while calling thunder storms to come, while chanting.I always had "company" someone was always with me in spirit, I always knew that.People must of thought I was crazy if they heard me talking to them.This lasted until I was thirteen. At thirteen, I met a beautiful Native boy who was a couple of years older than I , and fell in love.I was introduced to drugs and alcohol, and started partying my life away.I lost alot of my spirituality at this point.I would run away from home for whole weekends, and worry my parents desperately I was sent away to private school when I was 14, in Winnipeg, Manitoba, a city far away from home.I lived in a dormatory with about thirty other girls.Well to make this part short, my partying, destructive years lasted until I was 21 years of age, when I became pregnant with my oldest daughter Brianne.I too say that this saved my life, opened my eyes, and smartened me up.She was a blessing. I did alot of growing and learning in my twenties, and searched for my path again.I ended up in a very abusive relationship with a man who beat me when I was 22.Six months after meeting him, I was so depressed and messed up.I decided I wanted to search for my birth mother.I knew a little bit about her, and my grandfather(that is a miracle story in itself I would like to share too), so I took that information and found her.I met my birth mother, three sisters(Erin, Kim and Shannon).I was still in that abusive relationship at that time, but they gave me the extra strength I needed to survive I would say. That relationship I was in turned my world for a loop.This is when I faced evil eye to eye.It took alot to get through this alive, he tried killing me many times.I regret not having the strength to do something about it now that I look back at it, but it was definately a learning lesson. I finally ended that relationship on New Years day of 1997, by meeting yet another abusive man, only his abusive ways were so much worse.He was an alcoholic and drug addict, and abusive mentally, verbally and spiritually.I ended up having two more children, Ashley, who is now 5, and Brenden who will be three in March.I ended the relationship with "him" in August 2002 when my daughter Ashley(who had just turned 3) started showing strange signs, and made accusations that her dad(my ex) was sexually abusing her.I got him out of here, and called Child and Family Services.They investigated.So.......................................................here I am today, two and a half years later.I have done so much healing in this time.I have found my path once again, but I still search for more.Finding SK really helped me in my healing process, and everyday gets brighter and brighter all the time Thank you for listening. Blessings, love and light, ~Ashara Fey~ |
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Dear Ashara Fey; Kerri-Lee, I feel so proud to know you!  I shine like this..... Thank You for sharing your life-story of the past. It is almost the same as mine, as you well know. And the years are similar to, i mean we were almost of the same age with almost everything. Very strange i find it. I feel i get confused, almost shocked at the things we share. I am so glad for you, that you had the power and took the power to leave, and end all these negative stories. I believe (hope) that many of those ghosts you saw were actually watching out for you..... I am soo glad you sang and talked to the stars and animals. I myself talked to the plants and sang. -Do you know, some years ago i heard a tiny, tiny tune; i didnt know, i looked around in my bedroom. It was a newly picked rose from my garden ( i had at that time) that i had planted myself. -It was singing. Can you believ it. ( perhaps its deathsong) My dearest one, i feel amazed of your story. I tell you, i have been working / cooworking / on message boards with grownups that were sexually abused as children or teenagers. I myself was abused by different men, not so "gavelly", but violation my own space and body..... That is very traumatic. And i have been in serious therapy all over the years. If you at any time, feel you could use help / whatever/ with anything you MUST NOT hesitate to ask. No question will feel too small for me. I hope you will write to me, maybe off the board.(at times) Or on it if you feel things should be shared ( at times) to co-heal, or whatever i should call it would be a great opportunity for me. May the Good God Bless your step forward and your children. I would like to share my meeting with / becoming wolf, but someother time ( i am too tired right now) From my heart : i love you with my purest feeling, my sister. Joy to YOU from : Victoria Skywalker / Laughing Pine / Sore Paws and manyother names.....may you know them all..... |
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Ashara...you are such a special person! Thank you so much for sharing your light! Love you! ZZ |
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Tis true Ashara you are a blessing.
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AsharaFey Amazing how so many of us with gifts had similar childhoods. It is a confirmation for me to read your story, as well as others here, it reafirms how little parents knew about the spirit world and gifts. We as children suffered at their ignorance. Thanks for opening your heart to us and sharing your life. Pearl |
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My dear friend........I want to tell you that I am so sorry for all you have had to endure during your life.........but, ...and please don't think I would wish pain on anyone........but all that you have went through has been the making of one of the most beautiful people I know......I am most grateful to have you in my life.....thank you for allowing us into your life.......it is an honor.........Love always, M~ |
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All I can say is that when I've read your posts, I always thought you could speak with plants and animals. I had no idea or wouldn't have been able to imagine what your life had been like. All I can say now is that plants and animals as well as the stars or the wind can still speak to you. Jaguar |
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(((Ashara Fey)))) You have truly come a long way... Thank You for allowing us to get to know you.. and of course I don't need to tell you that you ARE special.... In Light, Marisol  | |
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