Most of you know so much about me, most of you have probably peiced my puzzle together and know me very thoroughly.. But here goes..
My Spirit name is KNeeshowbek (Kay-nee-show-bik) it means white caps on the water-there in rough times.. It was given to me by the water spirits through an Ojibway medicine man while fasting for 4 days...
As a child I was raised hypocritically catholic, and was told I was the daughter of Satan, a true born witch I knew all my life I was different and couldn't explain why... My mother would scold me if I was caught "hanging" around with kids of aborigional descent I was punished for hanging around with the dirty bad kids.. I lost myself completely and was so confused when I learn that I was actually Algonquin.. half to be exact. From the time I was very young I spoke of spirits and attempted sceances and ouija boards frequently, I started studying witchcraft by the age of 10 because I was looking to understand what was happening to me and no one would try to help me understand instead I was told I was evil...
As an adolesent I began to spend time in the forrest befriending the trees and whatever other spirits listened to my thoughts.. I have been quite fortunate as I was given very wonderful friends I spent alot of my time singing to the creator and the wildlife dreaming to someday be special to someone.. I loved the theatre, the stage became the one place where I could be anybody else but me and truely felt as though I belonged there because I truely hated everything about me.. I prayed everyday to be somebody else, anybody else.. that wish was never granted!
My parents didn't have money to send me to university so I found myself a sponsor to pay for the books and tuition, I also worked full time to see that I had a means of supplying my other needs...While I was in school I pretended to be normal, I didn't want anyone to know how different I was, I made up all kinds of stories about my weathly family who loved me very much.. All during this time I couldn't explain that empty, lonesome feeling.. something was missing! It was also during this time I met my husband Mark..
I have two children 10 (Roman Felix) and 3(Austin Storm) I work for a cell phone company in customer care.. Still feeling quite empty, not in the way of love... I believe I have love surrounding me 24/7 my husband and my children couldn't love me more, nor I them... but something is stagnant, something's missing... I know my destiny is so much more than I am... but I do have my lessons to learn here first.. I've been working on a book about my life and the adventure it was.. Well think I'm finally gonna get out of your hair... LOL! In light and love,
KNeeshowbek 
PS: This is my real Grad Picture!
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