I understand completely how you feel, its not wrong to feel this way about someone who abused you for so long and in the end the hate will turn to pity, that is when you know that although you have all those memories inside you, you will have started dealing with them, it takes time, a lot of time but in the end you will come to look at it as part of your past, and you will be able to move on from it. As for your kids, be there for them but you cant take away what he did to them so just being there is all you can do, they have to deal with him in their own way.
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