well seen rhonda was ok she doesnt see my mood improving yeah fair enuff...........not slept much tonight slept bit today but not really as kept waking up head just been muzzy last couple of days.............plus lisa broke ur trust big big time but but from wat theyve said dnt think her mum will tell, but she took that right away from me yeah have calmed down totally not mad dnt think anymorw just pissed of as brings up trust yet again with me.................just wait till i hear wat meds they gonna change me too, another 3weeks off work so  still waiting around, hopefully 2morrow will go better just gets 2 ya waiting an waiting and fear factor comes in also........but sure 2morrow's another day..........heads buzzing buziin thoughts running around body feels tired want 2sleep an hide........yeah im letting the feelings just ride but hell it takes all outta ya...... just wish could hurry up an get some sorta help this emotional roller coaster is getting more an more out of control and boy my head cnt think memory is shocking, concentration not so great i just want 2hide until it all migrates...........