sitting alone here computer on dnt wanna go to sleep as tomorrow will come

tummy going nervous starting wouldnt it b great 2have it over an done

make sure u open up no point sitting there all dumb struck

wat will they think wat will they say/

will they make me more afraid an wanna run away

shouldnt have slept earlier but thought i could stay

but no up again tryin 2keep my fears at bay.

it shouldnt take long she wont bite me

but wat will the success b if any at all?

hope i dnt crumble i'll not b happy wont find it easy just want itt outta the way

please jus let me sleep i need 2rest cant think on my feet.

back in pain wish it would go away sitting lyings uncomfortable head gettin sore y b so low come on ur a big girl now just go with the flow

 

pains aches wont go away its a matter of time now

will i ever break, no time 4messing no time for stressing

will they help me get better or will they think i'm a mistake..

dnt want 2 get angry and think its all worthless

just need a break cant bare any more mistakes

pick at skin but it just leaves marks s/h will help for a minute then i'm left with all the marks....un sightly disgusting just adds 2 my body family never said its not ur fault really

who am i kidding me inside

i've tried 2get so much help i've tried and tried

i'm not horrible really inside just the real me feels safer if she hides

i mayb not b worthy of being in here but can any1 really hear the silent screams

see the tired sad eyes? she's trapped trying 2get out can i help her?well im gonna find out......ive always been a failure job, school, life ,daughter friend sister

but all i want is 2protect every1 thats my job always has been

every1 sees i'm the strong 1....

dnt cry u wont get hurt dnt tell others cause it all ur fault,

i did do wat i was told i still protect them all, its just lou thats not protected as she cant afford to fall.......he's happy i'm sad i wish i could carry on my life like he has

i'm there 4 them all i'm the happy 1, as lou has 2protect herself from them all

her shoulders r heavy her heart even more he took my life he took my virginity i could have had his baby then where would he have stood but no i stopped that happening i suffered the sickness an pain with that 2, boy he's a lucky man he can take all this gult an feelings of despair i've had my time cant take anymore