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y the f**k do i bother? y the f**k do i care? whenever u think u have a friend there they really dont care try it on ur own try it with a drink no matter what way u try it it gives of nothing but a stink down in the dumps no1 cares but hey who gives a f**k y care its not fair just keep it too urself an no1 will give a care ........ok yes miss negative head on but i am fed up trying stick positive an feel im getting nowhere, just wana be back to "normality" watever that is..........just fed up and pissed off waiting an waiting 4 wat ppl 2 judge me and give me advise that is worth shit all?/// i dnt know it dnt matter.............. |
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woooaaaa whats goin on??? you do have a friend cus im sat right here. dont bother with the drink it doesnt resolve anything and i give a fuck. and who is going to judge ya? an i dont think thats ya negative head ya got on i think its ya slighty pissed off head  sorry im not making a joke about it. tell me whats up? have i got u on messenger? and yes it matters by the way lou x |
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luc, you know me "mighty mouth"lol, i care and it hurts to think you feel i don,t , we all care, please i beg of you try to accept our care, understand no matter what you do/say/act, .... we are here for you , as you are there for me, in my taboo shame, we all put up defences, fear makes us afraid to trust , even i fear , yet if wedon,t say "oh to hell with it" and take our first step to one who offers care , we are stuck forever, ...... so i walk toward you, who offered me console in my taboo shame , i fear yet i walk to .......you,  |
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i dnt know how i feel, i try keep the positive push back the negative...was feeling angry when got up, chest was going mad took a diaz which seems 2 have calmed me down..........im not pushing others away i am moving forward yet it is crawling at the mo as am feeling tired fed up and im in the numb feeling i think. just want too sleep not sure if im tired or looking to escape??mayb both not sure? No1 in group has judged me so im not getting at any1 in here, just how im feeling pissed off and fed up...not going back to work as i know im not fight for it also, but im bored, have 2 go home 2my parents next week and go c shitty shrink on 4 november... Im just moaning and i guess in a bit of self pity i dnt know.......fed up waiting and yeah guess bit of fear comes into that.....heart broken i feel, just bad days like everyone has  it will pass sometime its just not easy as you all know too let it ride over ya  luc  |
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luc, just read your mail last 1, not sure where you posted it so answering here, i hate people saying what i,m going to, cos we are all unique, but i truly know where your coming from, my 1st partner died , when i was 36, we loved deeply , but.... because we did, i found it impossible to burden him with all my fears, cos, then i was making him worry about me, so i would then worry about him , cos i had told him, lol,  i demanded to see a psychiatrist when i was in my 20s yet even so, as time drew near to be blunt , i was shitting myself, would i be commited ? was i geneticaly insane?oh lor what i put myself through, to top it all, when i got there i saw a freudian, (they don,t make conversation, just ask questions, and look at you, like a lab specimin, )oh boy i shook when i got out of there, but luc it was the best thing i ever did, i was diagnosed as suffering from anxiety, caused by my childhood, the relief of knowing i wasn,t insane..... wow, luc i have gut feel you are going to feel so much better when you get home, now i sent you my mobile number i want to know how you get on, hugs and love rusty |
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