Rachel..Your story brought tears...How could anyone be so cruel to a child is beyond me...but, don't be to hard on yourself...Yes, it is true that you have a wound, a hole in your heart that will never heal...You will never forget your precious girl, and the memories you have of her smiling, and you will not forget the bad memories either, but, I hope that the good memories outweigh the bad, and that you can find some measure of peace so that you can heal...I hope that jackass gets what he deserves....that won't bring your baby back, but, he still needs to pay....
Take care of yourself and your other children, and hold on to the good memories of all of them...your are right, we should cherish each and every moment that we have with our loved ones...and don't ever take life for granted...
Thank you for sharing your story with us.
Love and hugs...Rean