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New Message on Coping with the Psychopath/Narcissist Child
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From: aplsauce03
Message 1 in Discussion
My NP daughter sent me this from Iraq after a year of no contact after
assaulting and threatening to kill me in Aug. of 2007. I added some commentary
in ( ). She perfumed this letter, just for an "extra touch".
I've thought about writing a letter for a while, but honestly, I didn't know
what to say. Every night the words came so easy, but when I finally sit down I
go blank.
I want you to know that I forgive you. (I guess that's for having her arrested
after the assault). You may not feel that you have done anything to merit
forgiveness, but there are some things that I feel differently about. I forgive
you for everything, Mom. And I am deeply sorry if I have ever hurt you in
anyway. People do things for many different reasons. And if in my actions, out
of feelings of anger or betrayal hurt you-again-I truly am sorry.
You probably guessed I am in Iraq. It's going to be alot different this time
around. 14 hour workdays. Guarding prisoners. 3 minute showers. And there is
a haze of tan that infects everything. There is no sun. There is no moon. Not
a single piece of green. Just varying degrees of tan. (isn't that sad, welcome
to my world, only you colored it black). It's almost sad. And with the work
schedule, I will probably not be able to finish school. (Hmmm, no kidding,
she's 24 she hasn't even started let alone finish, plus she's already given
herself one more excuse). I was really looking forward to that. However
everything set aside, I am trying to stay positive. I don't want this place to
eat me from the inside out like it threatened to do last time. (Must be
difficult keeping the mask on that long, but she has no choice tensions are high
and they're are also armed). Oh, and I'm hoping to join the "Praise Team" at
the Chapel. But, like I said, who knows with the schedule. (One more excuse).
John and I are fine. (her husband she married the day before she had to
report for training for Iraq. The 5th time she met him was the wedding day, we
haven't met him. She told him I would "eat him alive", however her other
boyfriends that weren't brainwashed into believing we abused her actually like
us. They have never lived together and lived about 1000 mile away with a phone
courtship). We talk everyday and still managed to not have a single argument.
(he's in for a BIG surprise when she returns). It is difficult, though. We
miss each other terribly. I really wish you could've met him. (He may have
learned that she's a liar if that ever happened). He's everything you could've
ever wished for me including the whole blonde + blue eye thing. Right now he's
working on becoming a Paramedic. He's already a licensed EMT, but he wants to
do something a little more. I'm quite proud of him. He works his cute little
butt off. I'm sure that I could go on and on about him, but all that really
matters is: I'm happy. We bring out the best in each other. And we take our
marriage VERY seriously. (I'm sure).
I'm sure that I will write again, as I continue to feel some sort of
obligation to let you know that I'm alright. (She didn't have that problem
before she left). However, I ask that you don't go out of your way to write
back. (I have no address). Simply put, I am not ready for a relationship with
you. I am sorry if you felt that being here might change my mind, but it
hasn't. (Actually I was just glad she was far away). I may never be able to
have a relationship with you, but time changes things. No one knows the future.
Please know that regardless of whether or not I see you again (as if she's in
control of that anymore), I will always love you. You always have been, and
always will be my Mother. (At least she left out the F'ing). And at some
point, when I look back to the past, you have been my best friend. Take care
and know that I think of you often.
Love, --------------
I couldn't even begin to make up that crap, she also put me on the FRG (family
readiness group) list. I took myself OFF. Then the other day she tried to IM
me. I denied it. I want her to stay away. She must really need "SUPPLY". I
have none
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