Hello Blueghost and welcome to our group.

 

I feel your pain, it can overwhelm a person.  We all are walking this road as well, so you aren't alone.  Everyone here is caring and you will find validation here...

 

Again, welcome, and please keep posting.

 

I send you peace

 

Dancer

Welcome. We all share the same pain and hurt here. I hope you'll find this site useful and supportive. I remember the shock - it was the most awful feeling I have ever had in my life. Don't reproach yourself for your daughters illness. (do work/don't work/money/ no money etc, makes no difference.

Welcome blueghost

We sure know how you feel. Sometimes some of us (me) go up and down with our feelings. Some days very sad and other times you just gotta laugh about it, cause if it wasn't so sad, it would be funny. I have something to look on the bright side. I know for me it's good (my daughter n/p is 28). I thank God every day that she's living on her own and NOT with me. Because if she was living WITH me my health would be worse than it already is and I would go DOWN fast. Please stick around and vent here when you're feeling better. d.j.

I'm glad you said that dj. I thought maybe I was the only one who had mood swings like a see-saw! Unfathomable.

I thought I was the only one who was swinging on the mood ride... I'm glad to know it's not just me.  Some days anger and pain fight for center stage, other days I feel the anger welling up and I think about some of what has transpired and I have to laugh.... I remember when my daughter was 16, at that age they think they know it all, she was worse, she wrote the book, or so she thought.... when she threw in my face that I was stupid, didn't know anything and was moving out....it was time she lived on her own.  I told her... "well if you are moving out, you better do it before you forget everything."  Two months later she was calling me to ask if I could pay for her prescription she needed for a bladder infection...it took all my willpower to not ask her why she was calling me, after all I was stupid.  I realized then that she was still very much a little girl, regardless of her biological age.  I see it still even with her latest tirade, I still see that little girl playing at being an adult.  I just can't for the life of me understand why she can be so vicious and vindictive.  Boggles my mind...I've never met anyone as hurtful and malicious as my daughter....

 

Dancer

I'm starting a new thread. I feel I need justification as to why I do feel the way I do...............

Hiya blueghost. I too have a very hard and difficult daughter. I didn't do anything wrong apart from try and give her a good basis for her life and everything I ever did for her was never good enough and she threw it back in my face. she is never going to be any different.I wish she would just disappear and leave me alone. I am working on the pushing her aside myself..but I am still struggling with it. I would love for her to run away again...but I don't know whether she will do this and be so good to me...but I live in hope.............if she ever ran again then the door would be well and truly closed on her, there would never be any coming back for her. I so wisehed last time she went I hadn't let her come back......but oh well...

To Shadow....I never met anybody as horrible and nasty as my daughter either.but obviously there are plenty of them out there.they all follow the same pattern........and they all think that they are unique and thought of all this stuff they dish out to us first,........lol!