Hi I am new to this forum and have been watching the inputs and stories for a few days. I never knew what an N was. I always thought somehow my son just hated me and only loved me when he wanted something.

We had to put a restraining order on him this time which was the hardest thing to do. He bounces from "friend to friend" to live with and then makes the circle again. He keeps his life a secret. In the last yr since the last time we kicked him out he has made the TX, CO, SD circle. He lives in his own world, is a compulsive liar, a mean drunk and only has anything to do with you if he can suck the life out of you. He has told me in one month his gf committed suicide. He wanted to see if I loved him enough to find out the truth. She was alive. The next month he said he had a seizure while driving and spent the day in the hosp. until they could release him. LIE. He was never in the hosp. The reason he got a bad headache was because he took 2 does of the crap they sell over the counter which is pure caffeine. He has done more of the scare stuff on me to see if I loved him enough to find out the truth. I am suffering from PTSD and it really messes with my recovery.

We allowed him to come back March 07 so he could get his GED and join the ARMY. Well that was a flop. He just used us again. I found porno stuff on MY computer and called the police and turned it over to them. Kicked our son out and told him we loved him but until he grew up and accepted responsibility for himself and his actions he is on his own. Hence the restraining order.

I now feel safer in my home. I am back on my recovery and working out the pain of what he did to us. I love him with all my heart but I cannot allow him to abuse me the way he has been doing. He even got close to physical abuse. Bless everyone in their endevers on their recovery and dealing with their N.