Hi again. I don't think there is one mum here who HAS NOT felt the guilt. Instead of seeing it as - 'you've abandoned your daughter', I see it as - 'I am on this planet too. I deserve a life, without lies/ madness/chaos'. The only way I can get that is by having N/C with my son. Incidently, I too was shown a picture of my gs shortly after his birth. I've never seen him. It doesn't seem to matter whether or not you decide on total N/C. I did back in March, yet at the moment he is TRYING to get involved again by associating with my vunerable 16 yr old d. He has caused havoc before re my d. I WILL NOT be reeled in by him again. I've left them to it - in the hope she sees 'the true picture' real soon!