Pandora721,

          you're all over this site and i'm new to this site so i thought i'd introduce myself.

I'm 40 and I still want to be a rock star when i grow up. I just regestered my 2 youngest for kindergarten-twin boys. their sister is goin into 2nd gr and I have a 14 yr old son who is p/n. this boy is a site to behold-he's big (not chubby),copper hair, chocolate brown eyes, (as usual aren't they all) he is hillious when he wants to be. sometimes i can't help myself, i have to laugh. he sings (3 yrs of choir) and plays guitar and draws beautiful sketches. he's also been arrested for hitting, pushing, throwing furniture at, biting and clawing my husband and my self. has been in so many hospitals that we're still not caught up and now when he's on a tyrade he says 'send me away, it'll just be more of your money' .other times its the i'm so sad you just wont have to worry about me anymore(gggrrrrr usually just before bed so i'm afraid to go to sleep. am weening him of meds-he's the same either way-but there are times when i'll give him his full or close to full dose of seroquel so it will knock him out for the night so i don't have to worry about  him hurting himself.the more i learn the more i think he's playing me w/ that fear). last week at school a boy said my son was going to eat his boogers(if only this could be funny) after class my son picked him up and through him against the wall and into a  trash can so he was at home w/me for 2 1/2 days and this mon he starts an alt school for a week. this is the first he's hurt someone outside our family-wonder whats comin'. he was in juv correct  for a couple of weeks for hurting us already.God help us all. this the pause in my novel for now -thanks  belrose777