JANICE'S BI-POLAR SUPPORT SITE

I'm the oldest of my 2 sisters and 1 brother. I'm 36. I have been physicaly, emotionaly and mentaly abused by my dad ever since I remember and I would try to protect my mother from my dad, only to be beat myself. My mother was 16 when she gave birth to me. My dad was 18 when I was born. My mother divorced my dad when I was 9. We moved in with grandma (mom's mom) till my mom could get on her feet. When I was 11 my uncle molested me and from then on all diff men molested me...my grandma's roomatte molested me. My cousin molested me. One time my sis and I where walking home and this man pulled over and opened his door and said "look". He had his penis sticking out and while my sis and I stood with our mouths open he took a picture of us. What sick and discusting men out there. My mother remarried a man who was a compulsive lier. He would promiss the world and let us kids down all the time.......he lost our trust. He was fun at times. He gave us piggy back rides. One time I ran home and told Bob that some boy's put a stick in my spokes and then lifted up my dress, well Bob ran with me to yell at the boy's but they where gone by then. He was much more of a dad then my own dad. I was alway's a depressed child and kept to myself. My mother kept telling me to get out of my shell. I alway's got beat up in school. Never had friends. I was a very lonley child. I was alway's trying to earn my dad's love, which I still have not earned. All I want is his love. I tried to comit suicide when I was 16 because my dad didn't love me. My mother had bipolar disorder, which explains my depression...I didn't finnd out I had bipolar till 1999, I was 32. Since being diagnosed I c*t saverly 3 times and ODed 3 times and one time I took 74 perscription ambian 10mg annd ended up in a coma and on life support for 2 day's another time I ODed and was uncontious and had my stumach pumped. I have lived many weeks in the psyc wards. I have spent Christmas and my birthday in the hospital before. This is enough for now. Thanks for reading.

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