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this is a hell of a way to be checking into the site. been awhile. i've got one foot in the grave and am gravely examining a colt. i've pretty much had with the whole miserable thing. life so called makes not one bit of sense, none at all. i'm having homicidal and suicidal thoughts, and all the things that i've had in place and have used before during these episodes have not attraction or value to me. i have a singular despair that know no depth, and its vacuum is wailing it is so close. i don't know how long i'm gonna wait. just don't know if it's worth it. please, if you have any tricks to get this stuff cut off, let me know. blip me at [email protected] alan g.

alan, please know that you can reach out to us at anytime and we are here for you i am sending you a special e-mail and i hope you can respond to me butterfly friends have helped me out many times and now it is my turn to try and give you some support watch for my e-mail

gelabriar

So what is it that has you thinking youd actually be better off "gone" than to be around here?? I AM sorry that I cant be there to give you a big hug and tell you it will be okay...Just put the Colt away please... I literally have been in your shoes and I too had the gun in my hand, all alone, family out of town, perfect...and in a split second I literally said outloud NO! I will not let dark forces get the better of me... My higher power will decide that... Ya see I was in a horrible motorcycle accident and died at the scene and came back.. I know what Heaven looks like and feels like.. part of my problem is Survivors remorse and once in awhile that calling to go the the other side is strong... But is fools play...only tricks and negative thoughts... focusing all energies into the negative and not giving any of the positives any attention...not acknowledging a single good thing i did i a day, week month or year.. I am sure if you sat down and wrote a list of all the good things you have done in life so far versus a few of the bad.. the good is going to outway the bad....We are all approaching the holiday season and and of course Fall is here. I have gotten 3 calls tonite from friends who all of a sudden are feeling blue--overcase weather, getting cold and bones starting to get the winter stiffies.

Growing old aint for wimps as my ex father in law says.. and thats the truth!!!!

So please, take a deep breath, sit back and use the phone and call the hotline in your area... Please get help and see your doc asap...You will be in my thoughts n prayers!!!

Big ol Hugs!!!

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