Hi, yeah, your not alone. Here I am sitting at my computer at 5:06 PM, alone.  No calls,nothing. I know exactly what your going through. I just let my lady go of 9 years.  I was bringing her down and all I want is her to be happy. All my best to you.   Have a Merry Christmas anyways, it'll all come around.    cole

Thanks!  It is now the day AFTER Christmas, and I am not quite sure what to do with myself.  I am supposed to be using my holiday off of work wisely, by packing more of my stuff from the old house where my husband lives, but the thought of it makes me want to go back to bed and cover my head.  After having lived there for 17 years, and with two children, there's a LOT of stuff.  I can't seem to shake this depressed, uneasy feeling, and am not sleeping well.  If I could somehow make the next 6 months or so pass in a blink, and be over the worst of this breakup, that would be great.  Not possible, I know.  Having a voice such as yours as a light in the darkness helps keep the worst of it back. I'm sure I'll emerge solid and strong, just not today. Nice talking to you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thanks for the post.  I thought about your words throughout the night (a restless, fairly sleepless night).  I think there are two separate issues for me during this divorce.  The first is the mechanics of it all.  Separating myself from a situation I've spent 17 years building, financially and materialistically, is one issue.  The house, yes, the items in the house, the checking accounts, property, the sheer volume of it all.  The second issue has taken me by suprise.  It is the emotional aspect.  I believed, becuase I have been contemplating this eventuality for about 2 years, that I had gotten through the worst of the emotional impact.  Not so, as it turns out.  So many feelings of inadequacy, and the self esteem issues I have struggled with throughout my life have come back haunt me, and I go from feeling like a confident woman with a bright future to feeling that I am unworthy and unlovable, in the drop of a stick.  I am now going through a grieving process that I thought I had already gone through (only a precursor, it seems).  I have taken enough college classes (and lived enough) to have learned about a variety of life processes, including this one, and in times of clarity I know that this is a normal reaction, and that as I wait it out it will get easier.  I watched coco go through this a time or two, and she is in my opinion a very strong woman, so I know it sometimes takes the best of us time to get a grip.  I appreciate your quick response.  It not only gave me a springboard with which to start thinking about what the primary issues are, but also gave me the comfort that there are those who care and will give support.  Thank you so much.