by: •·•°Å¤å¤Mî¢hæ£ 10/9/2000 2:07 AM

Namaste all,

I have a simple dilemma. ok ok I admit it to me it is not simple but I am hoping that to one of you out there it is simple to your perspective... well I will do a monologue here...

I find myself looking upon my path and seeing so many things in it which supports paradox (that is not the problem I have accepted since youth I am a paradox) but the matter of the paradox is that I am to bring a gift to this realm and that gift is one most dreaded and wanted... I understand all the penalties for bringing this gift if I do not fulfill the prophecy of my name Black Will (Will means bearer of the sword) but in my studies I find more and more in order to fulfill this prophecy I must believe in something I find most vile and oppressive and though I am willing to take the penalties I find that I can not because those that will be left behind will sit in shadowed thought...

So the dilemma is this .. how can I partake in something I feel is suppressive even though the ends will be great and the penalty none?

I know I know you all think I am crazy already but I never said I was not I only know that I bear that in which this realm needs... I thank you for your time and if I get banned for this rambling I understand most would go crazy contemplating this I think but it is truly something I need the answer to and feel that one of you (or more) hold the key I seek ..

In total grace I am disgrace until I see the light and go blind

In utter confusion I see through illusion and I stopped to seek so I'd find

True Will Mikael

From: lighthart Sent: 10/11/2000 12:39 PM

Hello Mike,

I find your dilemma intriguing. I look at what is right or wrong as based on your perception. If your intention is to do good for others than how is it that your action is wrong? I find that when my child asks for something and I tell him no, he may consider this an evil act, but I know my intention is to protect him. Is it wrong for me to protect him? Maybe, if it is a lesson he must learn and will cripple his growth. Or maybe it would be a better lesson learned when he is older, stronger, and wiser? And maybe Mike, what you consider best for others is not really true for them? When we start looking at interfering in another’s path (always a parents quandary) we must be very careful to verify with that person what they believe is best for them. They choose their path, hopefully we may assist, but decide for them, we should not. I hope my perception helps you on your path, love and light be with you, always.

From: Intense_Female Sent: 10/12/2000 9:28 AM

Will, thank you for sharing your dilemma with us. Dilemmas such as these are the meat of what we are here for. I don’t think you're crazy, in fact I admire your quest. It’s clear to me why you would be chosen for such a task.

I know that in my life I have had experiences that shook me to my core. Things that stripped me of my rose colored glasses. My family struggled through the years, we survived and nothing more. Now that my perspective has changed I realize that those times were the best times for myself and for my family. They made me strong, they taught me how to stand tall with pride and the hard times humbled us, making us a stronger family.

When I look around I see people have gotten very comfortable hiding inside their cars, their homes, hiding behind their big desks, shielding with large bank accounts. These are dangerous illusions people paint their lives with. It’s a false sense of power and control and the walls are built upon unsteady foundations.

It’s an illusion. Sometimes an illusion must be shattered in order for us to reach out to Spirit.

You did not create what you need to release into the world, you did not create the reason the world needs it, and as with all things of Spirit .... you are not expected to see and understand why this must happen. I hold you in my prayers and lift you up to Spirit. Blessings .

- Intense Female

From: Kellog_Bluff Sent: 10/9/2000 12:18 PM

Welcome, Mike. Thanks for your letter.

First off �?no one is ever banned from this community for sharing a dilemma. Also �?no one is banned for presenting his position by using proper Protocol. This Community doesn't work like that. I don't work like that. None of the Teachers here work like that.

That said, let's address your concern. Whether you are crazy, I am not the one to judge your state of mind. Doubtless I have been there, and may still be so we may be brethren. Regardless, being crazy won't get you ignored here.

Now let's address your issue. You want to get involved in something you think is "wicked", but you also feel the end justifies the means. You're doing two things here, Mr Will. You're allowing a morale perspective to direct your Spirit - and you're allowing that same righteousness to determine a moral outcome. This is not a statement of judgment - merely an identification of the posture you have selected. You have built this quandary out of your own building blocks. To "fix" this problem of yours, you will need to use another perspective. In small words --- tear down the problem house you've built here - and rebuild it with a clean foundation.

If you truly feel that the "end justifies the means" - whatever the means -- and you have confirmed that your vision of this gift is necessary for your spiritual growth - then you have no issue. Follow your Spirit.

If you feel that "wrongs" will never make a "right" --- then you need to address the difference between Ethics and Morality. Spirit often uses evil in this Wurld to effect positive change. In fact - Evil cannot exist without it's sister Good....but neither are any more than tools of Spirit to promote growth for us. We cannot grow spiritually - without an understanding of both good and evil. Understand this.... you will Not grow Spiritually -- until your spirit has tasted Both.

The pitfalls of ignorance in the next world are deeper than they are here. Evil here - is Nothing compared to Evil in the next Wurld. But it is contained in a different forum than it is here. Understanding this - and the relationship of good/evil - and the reason for it's existence --- will help you to resolve this issue.

It is a personal issue. You will need to experience a personal illumination.

Your victims may be waiting for you to effect this "evil"...so they can grow spiritually.

Your Spirit may be waiting for you to take the action of this 'evil"...so you can understand why it is necessary to taste pain and suffering.

We all await you.... and wish you well.