Start of ya diary is here sue hunni as promised

21/3/05

Hello

Right this happened today I feel silly posting it but it did happen lol

I went out in my truck ( thats what I call it ) lol its a 4x4 Trooper

Any how off I go to the bakery to get some pies and pastrys as my son is home from University....

I have this thing as I drive it is the only time that I am alone when I get some piece and quiet so after Chrissy's reading I started as I do speaking out loud as I was driving along to the Bakery ..So I said ok so what I got in the reading was a little elderly old lady so who give me a sign Im very up front lol I am always asking for a sign that what I see or what I think in my mind is true not just me imagination I bet they get mad with me ....Well as you know I am a novice and since hubby has been ill everything has stopped for me ...Took all these years for me to open up and then everything stops ...

Any how I ask for a sign and continue driving never giving it any more thought ..Parks my truck and go into buy a paper before I go to the Bakery ....Now heres what happens I came out of the shop and walk to pass my truck and I can hear a piano playing really loud ...Like classical music but it is only a piano and I am gob smacked ( pardon my words )..The music is coming from my truck I opened the truck and sat in and when I lokked at the CD player it was not lite up and was not turned on as it would have to have the keys in to play I sort of shook lol I rang my son on my mobile and I think he thought I had lost my marbles cos I kept saying that the cd player was playing without been switched on ...

Well it stopped and in my head I thought of a lady who use to teach me piano when I was a young girl why I should think of this I dont know as the last time I ever remebered my teacher was years ago ...I am so puzzled as to why out of the blue I would think of this lady by the way she died many years ago and I did HEAR the music it was really funny not funny ha ha ....Seems I asked for a sign and DID i get one ...

I came home and told my hubby and said Im going to ask tonight for a sign and he said no and laughed he said your psycic you know you say things before I get chance to say them lol....

I wonder why I cant get anything like all of you do but I can ask for a sign and get them not every time I ask may I add

I just wanted to share what happened today to me it did happen and I did here the music.....

I wonder if it was something to do with me asking who the elederly lady was in Chrissys message ....Hope it was ok sharing this with you ...

Love Sue

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I am not experienced and sometimes I keep things to myself ..I always thought that when you got messeges or things happened they were like spoken out loud loke if I was talking to you having a conversation but I get things like thoughts I have conversations in my head and think this is me making it up but like today and other times things happen I think no it did happen lol ...Oh sorry Im ramberling lol I dont know if you know this I dont talk about this to any one it is only since joining you here that I have tarted to post and open up a bit but as I say Im not like you as all of you are very clever may be not the right word to use but I wish I was like you all are that is why i spend a lot of time reading the posts and visiting your site ...I cant develp by going to a spiritual church but I can I hope open up here and be part of your group ...hope I am making sense ...

Love sue

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4/5/05

Hi Everyone

Just thought i would add this and see what you think of this .....

In the early hours of the morning my telephone rang it woke me up when i picked it up there was no one there so I did the 1471 to see what the last number rang was and it was from early afternoon .. It hadnt according to my phone rang but it did ...

This morning when I got up I went to wake my son who is home from University and he said who the heck was that on the phone in the early hours and he also asked why I called out his name ( which I had not done ) LOL ....I told him that the phone often rings like that and he was not amused said Im not staying in this house funny things happen lol .....( he was only joking ) .....

I just wondered have any of you had this sort of thing happen with the telephone ...Also hearing someone shout out your name .....

I have had once before had my music centre turn on in the niddle of the night and start playing a cd that was a bit weird as It woke up me and my hubby ......

But the thing with the phone happens quite a lot ......

As for hearing someone call out I have often thought Ive heard my name called it is always called out quite faintly like in the distance but with my son he said it was shouted out loud his name ...

Just wanted to share these things with you all

love Sue

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Hi Everyone

Im a bit upset tonight but just wanted to say that last night the phone rang again.....no call recieved again as it was after midnight the previous call was in the afternoon the day before ....But funny thing was as I looked around the bedroom a mist filled the room and it was sort of greyish hope that is the best way to describe it .....

Paul was not to well and was not sleeping well and very restless but funny thing was in awhile when he was settled the mist seemed to go and I could make out all the furniture in the room and the light came back wonder if that was anything to do with the phone ringing just a thought ...Will let you know if it rings again or the mist appears ....

love sue

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29/7/05

Hello

I just wanted to share with you all this what is happening to me in my life at the moment ....

You will all know from me posting that I am married to a lovely man called Paul whom I love deraly we have been married 28years oooohhhhhh long time but Im not old lol only 49 years young lol ...

Paul took ill just over a year ago and from been a very active man looking after me and his family a son and a daughter he now is been looked after by me I care for him

My daughter is happily married and my son has just graduated at University and has been lucky to have got a job and is settled working ...

So that leaves Paul and I and what we have .......Paul has got Chronic Heart Failure and at the end of last year had a diffibulator fitted to stop sudden death syndrome and to improve his life but sorry to have to write this down as we found out last week he is not doing good he is still getting more poorly and they actually used the word Terminal which in the back of my mond I knew I would hear ...

Right I have been trying for quite some time to develop and make head and tale of spiritual things I have for a long time been able to see things people when I close my eyes and so and so but now all this has stopped ....

Well I want to say that even though I cant continue at the moment I am ........Strange as it seems I am developing and learning ....

On a night when we are in bed we often lay just holding hands are way of been close and now a mist comes into the room and a chill is in the air and we BOTH know that there are angels or spirits here with us even though we can not see tham ....Also we are as a couple talking and unfolding together and are soooooo close much more than I could ever imagine us to have ever been ...I am learning to accept even though I am sad and dont want to what is wrong and going to happen to Paul ....He has decided that he wants to carry on and not have a heart transplant and I respect hiim and agree with his choice so now we are as a loving couple living each day as it comes and are so lucky to have each over to be with ....I do believe that spirit are with us and are guiding us and helping us ask me how I know and all I can say is the little things like the chill in the air the perfume I smeel the smells that paul gets ....I dont want to be on this road in life Im going down but I cant change it ...When I asked Paul how he felt when I said I was angry he said something that really made me sit up and think ...He said he was sad ....Sad that he would die and leave me ....Sad knowing that I would be sad if he died ......

What a wonderful husband I have found and lived with for all these years I have no ides how long God will let us be together but I am going to live and am living everyday with a wonder ful husband and a loving father and grandad ...I hope that it goes on for while yet ....Who knows .....

I just wanted to share my feelings and to say even if you do not develop and you think your not I KNOW YOU DO ...I AM EVERYDAY.....we just all learn and develp in differant ways ...

Love Sue

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Good Evening

love sue ..

Hello

right here goes im not very good at opening up and putting into words what I am going through or what is happening to me but here goes I really hope that i get some answers .....

Right I do my meditating be it on a night in bed or during the day when im sat quiet and see what happens ....

Right a couple of times when Ive done this i get like flashing light a bright white light when my eyes are closed and i see people who they are hum I know idea ....

Any how last night I had a really restless night kept sleeping on and off and was getting really cross as I could not sleep ...Then as i was lating with my eyes closed and thinking what Im going to do when I wake I see this flashing light really bright and it was dark in the bedroom i was awake and it just kept flashing acrosee my eyes I had them closed it was like it was a room I saw a man and I said in my mind oh no go away im too tired to be doing this and seeing what your showing me ..It kept flashing a few times more REALLY bright it was so white I cant tell you any how it went I dont know who the man was I am going to see what tonight brings .....

But I just wanted to know has anyone else had this happen ...I have had it when I have my eyes closed and I have the red all across my eyes but this is so bright the light it flashes so white when you have your eyes closed It is like someone comes into your room in the dark of night and puts the light on ....Im really excited about this if Im honest as I am getting this with out wanting to so it cant be me imagine it can it ....Cant wait to see what you all come up with ....

love Sue

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All I can say is that when my eyes are closed and im fully aware of aht is going on I get this really bright light it flashes across my eyes now when it starts to happen Ive just thought it is the same as when you get the flash on a camera but then it settles in time and it is just oh Soooooo brilliant white that is all i can see with my eyes closed and the bedroom is in pitch darkness ....Now im going to maybe make you laugh Maia as the other night it happened and I said oh no go away Im not wanting this now and it flashed a couple of times then went ....I do hope cos i said that that it will come back again as Im sooo excited it is quite funny really as when i saw the dark shadows in my bedroom those spooked me a bit but this does not scare me at all actually i find it really calming ...Can I say what do i do knwo when it happens can you advise me .....

Oh now just got to tell you this before i go I have a television in our bedroom and the other day when i went past the bedroom it had switched on ( who switched it on ) dont know lol .....But I just felt like smiling as i went in the room and turned it off ....

I am hoping that I dont have a long gap again before I have any more happenings but knowing my luck I will start falling asleep again when i start to meditate will have to try to concentrate more .....

love Sue