WINDZ OF CHANGES

ok, here i am, gonna use this board to its full advantage today!!! while i was at volunteering, allison (the executive director) and merrin (the program administrator) called me and Bev (the woman, my friend, who i do volunteer shifts with) to the front room, to tell us, that allison will be leaving hopes garden in two weeks. im feeling really bad, because i know that i played a part in why she is leaving. the board of directors had known there was a problem with allison (she in short, was having hissy fits, and treating the volunteers badly sometimes) and so paula, asked me and bev if we would tell them of specific insedenses that happend, which i did... i didnt do it to get her in trouble, but just to make hopes garden a better place... anyways, long story short, she is leaving, and i feel so guilty, like i played a role in her getting fired.. i didnt intend for that to happen, i just wanted to make hopes garden a safe place for everyone.... anyways, so anyways, it was all confidential, what we said, and our names were never mentioned, but she knows it was us (there is no way she couldnt, we are the volunteers that are there regularily, twice a week, most others are there once a week, or once ever two weeks) and we know she knows its us, but she cant say anything to us.. so when she told us this, i was ok, i sat there, and just said that we would miss her etc.. then i lost it, started bawling and just left the room..... well, when i went back to group, i just gave her a hug, and we talked, and she said that it was for the best, i said that alot of things are changing etc. and she said she is having a hard time, etc, that her dad just died recently, her mom is going for surgery, her uncle just had surgery today, she lost her job.. (before, it was just said that she was leaving, she didnt say she was fired) so thats why i feel guilty.... i have nothing against her, she is very nice, just when she had the hissy fits, i was scared!! so anyways, feeling really guilty about that, and we lost our facilitator for my wednesday night group, and i had just handed in a feedback form, so i felt like it was something i said (it turns out she got a full time job, plus she was unhealthy) but i still feel like it was my fault she left.... then on saturday, at our big event, the facilitator we used to have, was down from thunderbay, and so i saw her, and totally lost it at the mall, was bawling my head off etc.... so arrrrggg one good thing i guess.. disability got the letter from paula my dietitian, regaurding getting me a dietary allowance, to buy my ensure and stuff, so they gave me forms i need to take to her,and she needs to fill it out, and if i bring it back before they process the cheques, will probably get the allowance on next months cheque.. cross your fingers! anyways, i guess thats it, im all out of tears, think im dehydrated! thanks for letting me get this off my chest........ sigh. luv lynniesue

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