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hi everyone, me again.. i found out yesterday, that an msn group i belonged to is closing, and that alot of the members, who i thought were my freinds, were two faced, and talking behind my back, about how crazy i am... so im feeling alittle betrayed right now, ppl that said they loved me, and cared about me all were just lying to me... i find it hard to trust in the first place, well, now its going to be next to impossible.. i dont mean you all, but i will be very careful about what i talk about, because i dont want ppl who say they are my friends to my face, and then talk about me behind my back, to be talking about me, and saying im crazy...

i also got a email from a freind today (or so i thought) i opened the email to find that it was from her mom, and that my freind has passed away from cancer on may 9th... so not only have i lost a dear friend to cancer, but lost most of the ppl i thought where my cyber freinds.. so im really having a hard time right now. so if you dont see me around, thats why, im sorry, but i just having a hard time dealing with it all.. thanks for letting me tell you all.. luv suelynn

I am sorry you are going thru all this emotional upheavel now, SueL. Don't worry about being available so often here, I know you will be back. I totally understand how you are feeling. It takes some time to get all of such actions to fall into place. They will and it will all work for the betterment. I believe that anyway. Take care of yourself and let the rest slide for awhile.

Sue, I find it hard to trust also. I am so sorry you are going through all of this, it just does not seem fair. Since joinging this group I am beginning to trust again. I feel so badly for you because I know the hurt you must be going through. I am so very sorry you have lost a friend. I know how hard that must be for you. You take all the time you need. We will always be here for you.

ty for responding...im still having a hard time dealing with it all, even though some of the parties apologized, i felt the were empty apologies, and not from the heart.....

im having hard time with the passing of my freind.. i know there are stages you are supposed to go through something like greif, anger bargaining acceptance.. but i dont think thats true in all cases.. yes, i am greiving (mabey not in the best way, ive been in bed for the better part of four days, not eating properly (but thats not a new thing, so guess that doesnt count) sleeping.. ) i know, that sounds like im just avoiding, which yes i am avoiding, but in my case, its avoiding having to feel, and therefore, feel the need to self injure to take away the pain (i know, makes no sense, dont even try to figure me out!) so i figured, the safest place for me to be, was sleeping. im trying abit now, to do things to motivate myself, but its really hard..i have been talking to my husband alot lately, which is a new thing for me, so that is a good thing... there is a cancer support centre here, and im wondering even though it wasnt a family member, that mabey i'll go there, and be able to get information on how to handle my feelings.... going to call them, and just see what they say. i took the week off of volunteering, simply because i need the time for me to think of all thats gone on, and besides, being on the phone with somone giving them information or support, and starting to bawl, not such a good thing, so gold star for me, for taking care of myself (sort of) thanks for letting me ventt...luv suelynn

Important Announcement The MSN Groups service will close in February 2009. You can move your group to Multiply, MSN’s partner for online groups. Learn More
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