I don't want anyone to read this really and yet I need to write it down. I know I need some advice on what to do next, but I am so depressed and have cried buckets, not sure advice will help. I had no idea I would get this down about this damn foot, but I have. It is just too much. My insurance wouldn't pay for the orthopedic doc I was sent to Monday. So I am still a mess. I have a boot that goes all the way to the ankel. This is from a few years ago when I broke my other foot. Yeah I know, but that one was because of dizziness from my head injury, which is in control now. So between my daughter, DR. ha, and I we felt it would be best to wear that than nothing. So I have tried, omg, it is so hot to wear. Just miserable. I don't know which is worse. I do have crutches, from before also. I have used them, some. There is just too much for me to fall over in the house. Between Jake under my foot, he is worried about me too much and my other little one so close by, I just know I am going to hurt one of them with the crutches.
Anyway, I have called every doc that is on my insurance and none can take me until next week or week after. I have no pain medication either. So my daughter told me to call my doc in am and let him know this he should be able to give me pain meds anyway. I called ER also, but the can't do anything either. I thought my insurance would give me a write over to see another doc out of area because of circumstance, they wouldn't. I am crying and moaning because I hurt and am sick of seeing all this swelling. No matter what it still keeps swelling more and more. I am at a loss. The ice is freezing and I just feel nothing is working. Pitiful I know, sorry, just had to cry on someone's shoulder. And who better than you guys who can understand better than anyone else. Even though this was my fault, crazy doing, I know. It still hurts and I am so uncomfortable with it. Ok enough about that.
I am going to try to do more in the room or as much as I can do while sitting here. My foot is propped up on a stool, with pillow on top of it even. Just I get depressed when it starts hurting so bad I have to quit and go lay down. You know I have slept a lot also, that is what you do when you are so depressed, I know. But will work as I can. I am so thankful for Sassy helping me. My other girls are going thru some really rough times also. Sorry your management team is falling apart. ha
Thank you so much Sassy for helping me and taking over so much. Whatever Sassy does she does with my say so. We have talked about every post concerning the room she posts and I have asked her to do it for me. So don't think otherwise.
I am off to the shower. Think it might make me feel better. I hate crying like this, you know I do. Thanx for listening to me everyone. 2 u all