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| | From:  CYLENE5523 (Original Message) | Sent: 10/10/2006 4:43 PM |
I know I shouldn't be. It is a beautiful day and there are so many things I have to be thankful for, but I feel I fell into the pit anyway. Or wish I could, not sure which. Plus I feel so ashamed to be posting this as I am not one to feel like this or share it anyway. My son feels it is better for me to share than to hold it in. Yes, I am going to call my shrink for an appointment later. Promise. Things are hard now, just like for everyone. I know that others have hard times too and I shouldn't be such a cry baby, but can't seem to help it today for some reason. Just need to cry and believe me I have. I worry about each of you and how you feel, if the pain you are in is unbearable. I am so sad because I can do nothing. I feel like I have let you all down so many times. OMG, I am just having a pity party maybe. I don't know, but I have cried all morning, just because of all the thoughts in my head. I miss some who I haven't been able to contact. I miss others of you because I have been able to talk with you and want to talk more. I never have that much time to do it. I have over 500 emails, most I deleted because there is no way to handle those. All your emails I kept and will answer, promise. You know what I am going to get a shower and cry in there and have it over with I hope. Everything just seems overwhelming today for some reason and I don't seem to be able to handle it. Maybe it is time to up my depression meds like my daughter and son say. I am off to my doc this afternoon, but need to check with shrink on that point. Don't one of you worry or fret about me, I am ok, just down right now, but am sure I will bounce back up. Thanx for listening to me everyone who has.  2u all |
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| | | From: granky9 | Sent: 10/10/2006 5:03 PM |
My dear Cylene, you must not feel bad about lettting us down. You haven't let any of us down. I don't know how you keep up with all that you do. It is a good idea to talk to your "shrink" about uping your meds. You have been under a lot of stress with having your ankle broken and being sick with migraines which I know can come from too much stress and trying to do all your work at home, your crafts and keep up with all these e-mails and keep the room going. You are always busy. Don't tell us not to worry about you; we can't help it because we love you too. I am going to send you some healing energy and some prayers. I know though that you'll bounce back pretty quickly, you always do. You're allowed to have a little pity party then I want you to stop some of that worrying about everything and everybody. All you can do is pray for us and you do that, I know. Then you need to let the worrying go with the faith that God will take over and he will. Now that is my sermon for the day. Love & Light to you. Cheryl |
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If you're pitiful than so are we all. I've been crying daily......maybe it's because of the anaesthesia from the surgery 2 weeks ago <hysterectomy> or maybe it's all the stress. So cheer up, I'm pitiful too! |
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Thank you Cheryl for all you wonderful words, meanings and especially energy and prayers. I did get a good shot of something early afternoon. I think you just hit me!! Thank you Linda for the hugs, you can never imagine how much ole pitiful me needed those. Marg, honey you have gone thru a lot with that surgery, so yes I agree you are probably mooping because of that. Thank you for knowing I am not alone in my pity party!! Anyone else who needs to should come on in and join Marg and myself. haha u all |
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aww cylene, i think you are way too hard on yourself!! you do sooo much for everyone, its ok to do stuff just for you too! you need to take time for you and not just everyone else all the time. you are so important to us, we dont want you to get sick or feel as if you let us know, you could never ever do that.. we joke and call you are fearless leader, but just joking, we all know how much you do for the room to keep it going and we all appreciate it soooo much, i love you, and if you ever need help with anything, i bet anyone would help, i know i certainly would. and hey, while we're on the subject, you are ALLOWED to cry you know! crying is good for you, it helps your heart feel less heavy when you are upset, it cleans out your tear ducts, and if you are like me, it really helps you feel better, so cry away if you need to, no ones gonna say nothing, and well, if they do, there gonna have to answer to me!! haha.. take care my dear dear freind, and know im always here for you... love you tons, and tons, suzy |
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ps) and you are not pityfull.. having a pity party is one thing, but to say you are pityfull?? no way i wont believe that, you are just human, you here me??? |
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| | | Sent: 10/12/2006 12:23 AM |
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