Afraid Of My Heart
Maybe I'm afraid of my heart.
It keeps sending out some pretty powerful messages to me.
"Go ahead, let yourself love to the very core of me.
Let someone love you the way you should be loved.
Stop being such a loner. All that comes of that is the blues."
The thought of truly loving, or being truly loved again,
is such a wonderful thought, but,
It brings waves of almost sheer terror over me.
To stand on opposite sides of a room from my lover
and have others in the room see the love we
have for each other by watching the glances
we exchange, would be a dream com true.
I dream alot, but, dreams are what keep me going.
Oh, I could love someone very deeply right now.
But he would probably be another victim of the waves of terror.
So I give what they will take, and take what they will give...and wait.
It seems I've been waiting most of my life.
Waiting and watching and dreaming.
©Mokiune Raentree