In My Heart
And with sadness upon my face
I wish I was in a different place
One that does't make me feel old
A place I'll be warm and not so cold
Somewhere where I'll feel I belong
A place where I can sing my own song
With only happiness and joy and peace
A place where for me there is no greif
Because these days I just don't feel right
I have a tough time sleeping at night
My eyes are closed, my room is dark
It's this time my life feels so stark
And I am so afraid to be alone
That I am safe is what I'd like to be shown
I am afraid of the things I feel
That with them I don't know how to deal
Someday I'm afraid that what I feel in my head
I'll feel in my heart and I will be dead
Suzy-Lynn Veenboer
January 11, 1991
(written as Suzy-Lynn Holland)