I Am
I am forever hungry
wonder if I will ever let myself live
hear the crunch of the celery
want chocolate
I am forever hungry
pretend I do not want to eat
want to feel the bones on my hips
touch the blobs of detested fat
worry I will never be accepted
cry because I want to disappear
I am forever hungry
want to understand I am not alone
say I am coping as best I can
dream I can be normal
try to forget who I am
hope I will survive me
I am forever hungry.
Suzy-Lynn Veenboer
January 20, 2005