I feel so depressed I feel so down
my head keeps spinning around and around
too many problems and feelings and fears
had them too long, for too many years
don't go outside, it's not a safe world
can't face the people the crowds are too much
anxiety building up in my chest till it hurts
an intense pain so strong that I gasp for air
I feel as if there is none to breathe in
afraid to eat, don't want to get fat
try my best, choke down what I can
feel sick to my stomach it's feeling too full
I plan and I plan, but can't seem to follow through
so frustrated with myself, I don't know what to do
people get angry, they can't understand
and I cry again and again, trying to explain
how the madness is gripping, sucking me in
eat healthy get fat, dont eat and get thin
my mind is tearing me apart
two sides fighting not sure which will win
I keep trying my best, to keep bad thoughts away
but try and I might, they always seem to stay
what can I do to break this cycle of madness
I've tried all my coping skills, they don't seem to help
I just want to be normal, want to be myself
want to be me, the one know one sees
but who am I?
suzy-lynn veenboer
may 1, 2007
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Suzy what sad poetry, but yet it's the truth I can feel it, the pain you must be going through living the way you do...the fear you have, about the outside world, gosh through this I feel I know what you are going through with how you have written it...every detail of how you are feeling, it is good to put it all down on paper, it helps you to realease it from within you...it's like actually talking to someone about it all, and now that you have put it in the group for everyone to read, well there, you have actually spoken to people about it..thank you for sharing all you feel may the Lord be with you and keep you safe and in his care...Hugs...Joan...
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