I Want To Be ME

 

Dark and dreary thoughts

going on up in my head

Makes me want to run and hide

Get underneath my bed

But even there I am not safe

Will there ever be such a place?

One where I can relax, and just be

Not have to pretend to be someone not me

A small little corner is all that I’d need

For it to feel safe to let my feelings be freed

I bottle them up till I want to explode

When will I let someone take this load?

But no, it’s mine, for me alone to bear

Even though I know I’ve got people who do care

If they knew the real me they would run away

So I stay in my head, all night, all day

Keep to myself not let any one see

All the hurt and emotions that are inside me

I want to cry, scream, whatever it takes

To get me out of this deep dark place

Want to be able to smile and have it be real

Instead of it feeling like a piece of molded steel

Just put on as a mask, all anyone can see

Oh how I want to show them the real me

The one inside eager to get out

And jump up and down all the while I shout

"This is me this is who I am"

Maybe I’m not ok, but I’m doing the best I can.

Suzy-Lynn Veenboer

June 11, 2007