Longing To Be Me
A day in a life, one gone astray
Of trying to make it all go away
One pill, two pills, three pills, ten
Will this madness ever end?
Can I find my way out of the dark
Come into the light, without a mark?
Longing to be happy, carefree alive
Instead of heading for a nose dive
Music pumping into my ears
Not really helping to alleviate my fears
Oh so sad and lonely even in a crowd
The world around me is frighteningly loud
Feeling scared, no one to blame but me
Is it as bad as I make it out to be
I feel so lost, in a great big space
Will I ever find my own place?
Putting up walls to block out the world
Weights on my shoulder being unfurled
Pain so intense I feel like I’m dying
But no, I’m alive or at least trying�?/P>
Not sure how I long I can keep up this pace
Everyday putting a fake smile on my face
For down inside me there is a hole
A burning deep within my soul
A yearning for a life that seems so far away
Wondering if I’ll even make it one more day
So I’m reaching out, crying for help
Because I feel as if I can’t do it myself
Will someone hold out their hand
Pull me from out of myself so I can see
That I am ok, and I’m allowed to be me?
Suzy-Lynn Veenboer
June 10th, 2007