My Pain
I don’t know where the pain comes from
a searing heat so bad I can barely move
the medication I take, slightly only improves
ache starting in my neck travelling down my back
and across my shoulders, up into my head
a pain so intense, it feels like I’m dying
I crawl into my bed and stay there just crying
take all the pills, sleep the pain away
but awake again still in pain the very next day
in my heart I am so afriad
to figure out the pain is all in my mind
yet I know the pain is real, not in my head
when I’m upset, angry or sad
I know my pain increases, gets really bad
and again I am driven to my bed
to get through another attack
sometimes I feel as if I will not survive
the pains so intense, sometimes I don’t want to be alive
I want to be free of all this pain and hurt
yet I know that’s a dream, on that wont ever be real
for my body seems to be forever at war
and I do not know how to escape the battle
Suzy-Lynn Veenboer
August 15, 2007