Pain
How can I do this when I feel so bad
I do not know how to make it known
How do I tell you what I cannot speak
Show what cannot be shown.
My words don’t seem as if they are enough
To describe the pain I am in
It’s a pain that one cannot see
The pain is invisible, the pain inside me
I want to cry out, scream and shout
Do anything to get the feelings out
I feel so bad my heart is pained
I deal with this again and again
How do I let you know of my thoughts
So you won’t get all mad or get scared off
Do I tell you the truth and hopefully be ok
or hold it inside and feel bad for another day?
I long to speak words that cannot be spoken
So my self imposed code of silence may be broken
Do I dare and trust myself to speak
Do I dare and trust you to listen
I guess all I can do is to try
and risk being an outcast once more.
Hopefully you can understand
and help me through all of this pain.
Suzy-Lynn Veenboer
April 14th, 2007