Hi my nick name is LULU975 but you all will know me as Linda. I am 48 years old  single and live with my 84 year young mother. She has some health problems and I do what I can. I live in Alberta Canada. I have an older sister who is bipolar and has suffered brain damage due to shingles and encephalitis,she lives in a group home. I have an older brother who lives with his family in another city.

  I have been sick since February/06 and suffer from chronic post nasal drip/unknown allergies, nausea, anxiety and panic attacks. I am also starting down the meopause road and think some of my problems are hormal imbalance. My sinus problem makes me feel like I am choking and I get anxious and panic.

I just have so much trouble functioning day to day doing anything and feel bad that my mother has to look after me so much as I feel pretty weak body,mind and spirit.

 I have had another anxiety/panic breakdown 6 years ago and was off work then too.

 No one can give me an answer as to what I have or don't have. Been seeking treatment wherever I can get it. I have been off work since April and will probably end up leaving my job because of the pressure from my employer to get back to work.  I use tranquiliers to help me cope.

I feel like I am alone with all this, my family doctor is very unhelpful looks down on me me using tranquilizers and makes me feel like some kind of addict. I use one a day.

The psycholgist my work has me seeing has me spinning my wheels.

I am scared,tired, and frustrated and I feel very very alone. I had one friend who has not spoken to me since March so I don't have any friends

I have been looking at othe forums and mostly nobody is there when you just need  to talk.

Sorry for being long winded tonight but I have so wanted to talk to someone who understands

I would love if anyone wants to be my email pal and look forward to meeting all of you

Peace be with you

Lulu975  Linda